And still there is one.

Let's keep it in perspective. Sure, upon re-insemination, my other eggies did not fertilize. That is incredibly disappointing. But I'll share some facts that I now know to be true:

-IVF is a godsend - not the menace I'd originally feared. Although we have many questions about why things are happening this way, it another huge step for finally finding some answers to our struggle with conceiving.

-I am incredibly blessed to have this one embryo, even if it is only just one. I just found out from a friend who is currently on an IVF cycle in sync with mine that of all six of her eggies, none fertilized, and she has no embryos to transfer - absolutely devastating. I, at least, have this one, very tiny, 3-celled hope that is continuing to grow in the lab just a few minutes from my house.

-After today, I believe - no, I am SURE - that I have, hands down, the best Reproductive Endocrinologist in the world. Today she listened to my concerns and fears and is considering altering my tx protocol with additional meds to address my concerns about auto-immune problems, thus helping increase our odds of success for this one tiny embie to make it. I am fairly confident that none of the other REs I have seen would have even listened to my concerns, much less alter a tx protocol for them.

- I know that if this doesn't work this time, that I have the strength to try again.

- The next effort WILL be better, if there is a next effort, because now we know so much more.

- If anyone has a chance to beat the odds and have a success, it is us. There are so many sending blessings, hope and prayers our way.

So my embryo transfer is tomorrow at 11:45 am. My RE will do an acupuncture treatment afterwards, then I go home for bedrest. I have one friend picking up my son and taking care of him, and another bringing over dinner.

After tomorrow, I can return to life and spend some serious family time with my husband and son, who have been so wonderful during this process. It will be time to change my focus and go into get back into life and find lots of things to distract me until my pregnancy test 2 weeks from tomorrow.

Thanks all, for your extra prayers, good wishes, and positive vibes.

And, as always, thanks for reading.

-kelly